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its officially war!
muahahahha!

i feel nasty and bad, that is because the thought of revenge went through my mind.
i kept on telling myself i want you to feel the type of pain and misery i went through previously, oh, the one you inflicked on me. do i really mean it and want it to happen?

perhaps, & perhaps not.

i've been battling with myself very much too - whether to hit you or to tame myself to be a much more lenient one. i am aware that sometimes, i do carry things way too far, and yes, i have done things to spite you and to make you feel remorseful. i'm sorry, perhaps all the agitation forced me into these actions. i'm really sorry.

i know our ''hatings'' for each other are kind of mutual?? yeah? i didnt name that wrongly uhh.
i hereby declare that you are the weirdest friend i've ever encountered, and oh yes, i definitely have questioned myself upteen times why you and i even started in the first place last time. it seems like a matter of disgust to me now, woooh, and i'm glad i'm out of it! phew!

oh, are we putting xiuxian in a very difficult position?
hey, but just see, a friend weighs more than someone whom he/she is wooing. so, xiuxian will choose you! after all, he chose you over sk and fin. see it? sometimes, i feel that xiuxian is really foolish to shelter you time and time again. oh man, many of us feel that hasnt he learnt his lessons from all the happenings? As we can all see, the answer has been revealed clear. aint it?

you know, i'm starting to not believe myself lately. i'm afraid to hurt the people around me, yet i feel that the possibility that i use xiuxian as a revenge tool is increasing daily. though not increasing sharply, but surely, and thats very bad. It is something so against what a human should do. its a sin!

If i ever hurt xiuxian in this manner, i wont feel good neither. actually, i am uncertain whether i like him or not. do i really like him for who he is, or do i like him just to spite zh? ohno! thats so bad! AAAAAAHHHHHH!

I like yilin so much and it is so clear i do not want to loose her. I feel that though she might not object xiuxian and i being together, but definitely we'll encounter some sensitive issues, so no! i'm not going to let anyone threaten yilin and i's friendship.
it has not been stable for very long already, but nevertheless, i wont give up.
no matter how many times i have been pulled back and pushed down, i will not fail to fight on.
yilin, it is pointless in ignoring me or pushing me aside. I really hope you understand that it would not work. my friendship towards you will not be brokened nor disheartened by a few actions of ignorance. all these seriously would not work at all! i'll be your friend who always stands by you, whether you want it or not. only God can solve and change our hearts. God's miracles.

i feel dangerous. This is so, because i seem to like people quite easily, except for those whom i really find it hard to tolerate.

yingxin was just mentioning to all of us the other day in math class that lee wei jie has liked me for a year and has been wooing me for 4 months, but i really do not have feelings for such a guy even though he is nice. sorry. haha! i really do not like rudolfs okkay!

bastard zh! haha! yes, i dislike you alot!