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i sigh sigh sigh and sigh!

why are we still feeling that mutual awkwardness?
stupidity i think! hahaha! things have really gotto to such a weird stage? - mutual ignorance.
wow! haha! but you know what? i still choose to believe that you are a bastard who took me for a toy. perhaps if i dislike you, things might be better though it seems the opposite of what is right. haha! see, thats how the occurrence in life receal themselves to us, simply in that extraordinary way. well, could i say that there might be a method to view it?

very likely and most likely, we have always been taking it in a very childish and immature way, but come to think about these stuff, its about people complicating the issue and not the issue itself being a complicated one. reverse, reverse! haha!

OHH..only if people could study life, and only if life was like a mathematical sum, completed in a very structural manner, with hardly any variations in completing it, perhaps more things would be predicted by ourselves, and less assumptions would be made to complicate all situations. sometimes, how wonderful it feels, but on other times, it does not appeal as much.

yeah, like i mentioned to yilin, zh's image was long long disfigured, and how foolish i thought xiuxian was to go back to him. Afterall, its only my opinion, whereas its his route and of course he has to accept the consequences that come long with it. i'm not xiuxian, and so i would not see things in the way he does, & neednt to be said, i would not have felt what he has gone through. suming up, i do not understand what it feels to be a person like him.

biased! yes, thats what i think i am. haha. in this situation, i strongly do feel that i'm biased! haha!

recently, we got afraid of each other again right? i see you as a pesticide whom i fear, and i bet this feeling is mutual also! oops!